Awake

Here I'm still laying awake
Typing nonsense into the conversation box
Only to erase it a minute later...
All even though I know you've gone to sleep...

I need you
I need you so bad

I'm confused
But even if you don't ever feel as I do I will still have you.

Hopefully.

I wish I had the words to say but I know you're not ready for me
I know I'll never be ready for you
I don't deserve you

You make it hard to fall asleep Abby

But so easy to dream.

So here's to hoping I have another night full of you and I

Optimistically: memories yet to be made.
Inversely: simply dreams, always to be remembered and never to be had

Here's to a new year of optimism.
Dream well, God bless you forevermore.