It's just me again

Well... I'm stuck again.. I thought I lost her once.. This time I did :( I lost J---... :( you may think that I was a fool for trying again. She was worth it, I don't regret anything I smile upon remembering every second. 6 months 20 days... She told me she just needed a break.. :( I can't say I'm not confused and not incredibly confused, that's life though. I still love her :) she knows it and she can't stop talking to me... She'll be back :) I know it.. Hopefully. But will I take her...? Depends... :( we'll see. I hope she is telling me the truth. I really do